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Heart Felt

Posted on Sun Jan 25th, 2009 @ 9:54am by

Mission: Echoes of the Damned: Pilot Episode.

After her meeting with K'Tan, Beverly decided it was time to look over some of the paperwork that was mounting up on her desk. She plpped down in her seat and began to sift through the PADD's.
Crew transfere's, power consuption reports and so on. It was very dry stuff.
She leaned back in her chair and rubbed the back of her neck. Coffee, thats what she needed.
She clmbed out of her seat and walked to the replicator, "Coffee, double sweet with cream", and in a sparkle of blue light a steaming cup off coffee materialised.
It was also to quiet. "Computer access music files in my personal database, play in a random order".
Over the invisible speakers came the lilting music off a twentyfirst century singer, Josh Groban. It soothed her, and she went back to her paperwork. She found that absently she was singing along quietly with the song, 'Cinema Paradiso'.
Music always helped her focus on her paperwork.
The song came to an end and without pause it changed to a new song. When she heard the first few notes she stopped what she was doing. Her heart jumped a beat. It was her favorite song. She had performed it once in Ten Forward during a concert.
"Computer, re-start the song and remove vocals".
The computer chirped its confirmation, and the notes came again. This song told her emotions to the letter. How she now felt that Captain Jennings was no longer here.

'Papa, can you hear me?
Papa, can you see me?'

She could feel her eyes begining to sting.

'Papa can you find me in the night?
Papa are you near me?
Papa, can you hear me?
Papa, can you help me not be frightened?'

The first tear slipped down her face with the high note at the end off the phrase.

'Looking at the skies I seem to see
A million eyes which ones are yours?
Where are you now that yesterday'

It was telling the story off her heart, the lonelyness that she now felt. She made her way around her desk, and began to put all her emotion into the song, belting out the notes with as much passion as she had saddness.

'Has waved goodbye
And closed its doors?
The night is so much darker;
The wind is so much colder;
The world I see is so much bigger'

Her life had become bigger since she had assumed command.

'Now that I'm alone.
Papa, please forgive me.
Try to understand me;
Papa, don’t you know I had no choice?'

The tears fell openly now, she made no attempt to hide how she felt. She was alone, both in this room, and in her heart.

'Can you hear me praying,
Anything I'm saying
Even though the night is filled with voices?
I remember everything you taught me
Every book 1've ever read...'

Her shoulder began to shake with the effert of putting herself into the song.

'Can all the words in all the books
Help me to face what lies ahead?
The trees are so much taller
And I feel so much smaller;
The moon is twice as lonely'

She had closed her eyes, finishing with all her being, pouring all her soul into expressing what she felt.

'And the stars are half as bright...
Papa, how I love you...
Papa, how I need you.
Papa, how I miss you
Kissing me good night...'

She had kissed him with her words. She hoped that he understood what she was doing, this was her way of talking to him. She would use her passion for song to comunicate with him now. He had always been so impressed with her talent, and this was how she would remember him, through song.

Her legs gave out beneith her and she crumpled to her knee's. Sobbing. Shuddering with the lost. Releasing all that was bottled within her. Opening her soul.


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